First I do thank those who took time out of their day to read this vent. I'll amit that I was going in an anxity attack and acted without thinking. I will be taking about continueing my my anxity meds after this attack. If anyone are questioning why I stop taking them it's because I finsh my 6 month trial a couple of weeks ago and I'm pretty sure that they want to see how well I would do without them. IDK but I will be taking to my doctor on Friday when I go to my appointment.
There are times I wonder if what I do is even worth it. It seems nobody cares about you nor what you do. So is it worth trying anymore? Is it pointless to keep doing what you love when no one wants you around? Why dosen't any want a depressed person around? We try to happy but it's so hard to be. All you want to do cry and nothing else. Why is the game of life so curl? Is there a thing called happiness? Honestly I don't know anymore. All I know that no body wants me around not even my own school did. Forgive me I should keep things to myself.
OatmealPecheneg
You need not only support but some medical help.
About arts- you shall love process, not result.
In 95% result is shit BUT I like to do shit. When it is done - it is no more your problem, what done- is done.
This is only way to be artist if you have no skills/time/resourses.